"stuck in reverse"...Fix You, Coldplay

"...You do this if you are eyeing on pharmacy. You chose

to do bio which means to say that you are not eyeing on pharmacy.

If you swtich to nursing on the 4rth year then you will be done on the 5th year.

This way you only lose one year, finishing nursing after 5 years instead of 4 years.

You can specialize in anestheseoloy for 2 years and you get a little less salary than

Doctors of Pharmacy..."

what else would you like me to do with my life, Dad. and thanks a heap for your lack of faith in me.

if you only knew the convictions and plans currently in my heart you might believe in me a little more.

if only you knew how hard i'm working right now.

I went from sturdy ground to quicksand just now upon reading that email.

"would you care
to hear my speak
would you dare
to hear my story

i'm not lookin
for your pity
i just need someone
to hear me

every part of me is screaming please
let me take the floor
and i need to know if you will
or just show me the door

cuz im bustin to fly out of here
and im ready to leave these tears
and i need you to listen right now
to this broken sound

i've made some mistakes
got lost on the way
found myself
engulfed in heartache

did some reflecting
been cleaning up my act
if you'll just let me
do simply that

every part of me is screaming
please let me take the floor
and i need to know if you will
or just show me the door

i'm not lookin for sympathy
just need you to believe in me
i'm tired of the emptiness
i've caused by my big mess
i just want to find love
maybe a smile to carry
but most importantly love

....and i need you to listen right now
to this broken sound
this broken sound"

-- part of a song i wrote. played at capo 2 or 3 and for now just 4 chords. Gsus, whatever chord is 200033, Cadd, and Esus. i lost the paper i wrote it all down on and the different chord variations i had in mind for the verse and bridge...

i cant even fathom stringing a line of words together that could adequately describe this bursting feeling in my heart or the endless thoughts searing through my mind. Lord i need you to hold me.