11.04.2010

just keep swimming....

it's raining...and therefore i'd much rather not be stuck on campus and go home and watch movies wrapped in a blanket and drinking hot cocoa instead. oh well, we don't live in a world where i get what i want now do we. cuz if we did i would not have encountered a rather large, elephantine load of crap on the side of the road. literally. a pile of crap. seriously what is that from?? i dont understand. nothing on this campus could yield such a concentration of feces.

ok, since i am in class right now i should probably go pay attention. ::proceeds to doodle::

no. no. i have to do work. i must get myself dedicated.

::cue epic, uplifiting background music like in the movies that signifies getting my life back in order::

11.03.2010

excellent

who didnt get up in time for everything i had to do today?

this girl

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh kndlkvgn/wagdkfng'wgfksdnf/lsandk;er

and now i will have to run around campus like im on crack, here i go!

5 AM is approaching too quickly for my inability to sleep

sometimes my brain just refuses to shut off at night. and then all of a sudden im thinking about everything and anything until sunrise. vicious, vicious cycle. someone quiet my mind or just knock me out with a bat so that i can actually get through classes and be able to pay attention!


guess since im up i could go ahead and look up some new songs...man i dont play the guitar nearly as much as i did freshmen year...this pic brings back memories from that year... sleep come fast!

10.27.2010

are we human? or are we dancers?...definitely dancers


oh that song made me think of high school...


10.25.2010

work in progress....


einstein's workers

" "FedEx SmartPost usually takes 7-20 days for delivery." Is someone personally walking it to me?! "--Marlee

also today brittany used the espresso thingies as "coconuts" as we reenacted monty python. and then promptly threw up our aprons like a little girl inappropriately lifts up her dress with a little "woooohooo!"

we are special.

can you feel the love tonight?

i can tell what's happening
what?
and they don't have a clue
who?
i'll ice 'em and then here's the bottom line, they'll have to ice me too

the warm room temp of smirnoff, carbonation everywhere, and after a big loud burp upon finishing, it's an ice war everywheeeere

vert lab precautions, college kid proof

"MAKE SURE TO WASH YOUR HANDS before putting them in your (or someone else's) mouth"
--my vertebrate lab handout warning about arsenic residue on this week's bird specimens

ps- why is it that the only times i feel compelled to run are in the early AM hours?

10.21.2010

bam. submit.

in spanish, we had to write a preview of what we will be doing our culture project on. what does this preview look like when you do it in two minutes?

"I will be writing about Colombia, a country rich in Hispanic culture. By highlighting topics such as religion, the importance of family, cuisine, and customs, I hope to provide a detailed and incisive paper about the various facets of Columbian culture. Furthermore, I aim to discuss the art born in that country and the artists that were made famous. This will include works of art as well as other areas such as music and literature. In addition, I will provide a look into the festivals they celebrate and the manner in which they do so. Colombia is a fascinating country, and I hope to impart upon the audience an appreciation for their culture and people."

weird that this paper is allowed to be written in english...meanwhile the powerpoint is all in spanish...who wants to be my practice audience?

10.19.2010

paypal is too convenient

whoa, i want a pet turtle this big

i just ordered a fall crawl shirt.

not quite sure why, maybe reminiscing last year, but i did it. if i go dt that day/night then i guess i'll get discounts!

10.18.2010

hello



my name is irene.
im an air guitar fiend.
click on pic to make bigger and save as your background. don't deny it. you want to see this every morning before you check your facebook and mail.plus, i would love for people to wonder why some random girl has started to become everyone's background. go ahead, give me a superiority complex.

it would make me happy...i want to be happy like i was the day we danced in the gardens...

10.17.2010

> bidet <

sick. didnt expect him to sing, thought he was just gunna play...check out the sound of my voice by him too...wish i could play like that...kid can play piano too (watch his vid of party in the usa with easy sunday morning)




oops on here twice. o well
haha cute kids

cumpleanos feliz...

melanie: "what do you want for your birthday?"
me: "other asian"

10.11.2010

crap you know that moment in the night when you get a second wind and you're not sleepy at all?
i have reached it and am now trying to decide whether i am going to my 8 AM... which is in 6 hours.

oh school, i wish we got along better.

guess it's time to catch up on some tfln's

10.05.2010

i wanna be the rain

doing laundry, watching beauty and the beast, doing school work, nursing a beer, and eating. multitasking at its finest if i say so myself. hello tuesday night! i better enjoy it cuz come tmrw study study study!!!!

"It's not enough for me to be around you
I wanna be everything that surrounds you
The sun to light up on your skin
Each breath that your breathing in
Or that you need
I wanna be everything that touches you everything
....
I wanna be the wind that kisses your face
I wanna be the rain"


"it's amazing, the look in your eyes...

like you could save me....that would be heavenly if baby you just rescued me now."

"forget your head and listen to your heart"

i feel like watching meet joe black.


10.03.2010

here i lie, with a donut

wow, im so incredibly sore and exhausted. and yesterday i walked around friar's parking lot with trays of 55 shots! what happened to selling just 20? i legit was worried when i picked up that first tray and my muscles groaned from the damage i already inflicted on them at tpp...and from tackling the bagel wall at einsteins. but alas, i made it through my 13 hr shift. didnt even think about going out. i was like sorry guys, im checking out. i didnt get enough tips to go out anyway =/

aw well, my crazy work weekend is over now. amen! i really need to go to the geology museum to knock out a vert lab assignment but see the problem is...i cant move! like really, walking and moving my arms just isnt working. you should see me. there's a lot of flailing, shuffling, waddling, ...crawling going on. haha

ok. im going back to sleep.

9.27.2010

aaaand here i go again

i made the mistake of sitting down when i came home to change....must...get...back...to...campus! ::lets out a hulkish scream and laboriously gets off couch::

ps- someone remind me i signed up to work tigerama, i can feel myself forgetting already...

this is the way i need to wake, i wake to you

morning run?

or keep studying...

hmmmmm ::twirls imaginary beard::

let's finish listenin to love in a box by workday release first then we'll...think about running again

9.26.2010

got a little too distracted learning matt nathanson and sara bareilles songs...how did it get to be 11:30 already?!?! gah, i could spend forever with the guitar. guess i will have to make myself put it down and actually do work now =[ so sad

however it has been fun spending the evening with melanie. i dont ever stop laughing when im with her. we're ridiculous. it's what we do.

...o man, i have eaten way too much today. morning run? yes please.

chances that i'll actually do it? zero.

"I got friends
so sweet
to sing to when I'm passing on the street

I got my guitar
to play when I'm down
and a microphone loud enough to rock this town

But it...
all comes down to nothing in the end
when you ain't got love
you ain't got love
But it all amounts to nothing in the end
when you ain't got love
you ain't got love" -- aint got love, todd carey

"it would be more economical if it were in a keg"- mel (not an alcoholic)

hot cider, cookies, acoustic guitar, and rain. fall is here =]



chill night, learnin some tyrone wells (you should check him out) and messin round on the gee-tah

9.25.2010

all i wanna be is the minute that you hold me in

today's attempt to do work has failed rather epically.

that is all. perhaps i shall write more later, if i feel so inclined to finally turn my eyes away from the paragraph i have read over 100 times now.

...
boy do i crave gatorade or v8 hardcore when i dont have it....

9.22.2010

perhaps mayhaps def

i think i want to go shopping this weekend.

yea...im going shopping this weekend.

9.21.2010

hit me up herff jones

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
--jeremiah 29:11

9.20.2010

i've lost my marbles; have you seen them?

starting to study vertebrate bio...now? commence freak out.

soooo much to do so little time!!! and i just found out i have a vertebrate lab practical monday. eeeck

quick 1 hr nap before another sleepless night. ...hmm, does anyone wanna call me at midnight to make sure i've gotten up? if i oversleep it will be a very bad thing indeed.

also, i fell asleep in the middle of my exam this morning. who the heck does that?!?!

man o man ready for this rollercoaster to go uphill now. please?

9.19.2010

i bleshu

meet my week in food form

isnt she beautiful... beautifully nutritious?

these are my snacks during my late night study fiascoes to be. since i wont be sleeping till thursday night. then some light R&R saturday, then PCAT prep and papers for the rest of the weekend.

but it's ok cuz i had a lot of fun in Auburn this past weekend!!!

just keep swimming just keep swimming

9.17.2010

munch munch munch

snap pea crisps.

get me every time.

9.15.2010

oops

how bout i almost missed the turn to harts cove and nearly drove into a ravine....

brutal awakening. pretty sure my adrenaline is still pumpin. well, if i was sleepy before, im certainly not now!!!!!

caffeine pills still not out of the question yet

damnit! i forgot food! i picked up all sorts of drinks and forgot snacks...but i dont feel like tempting fate again so hopefully this juice will be filling!

__________________

"it's ok to be scared. why be ashamed to feel like that kid who cant sleep after a scary movie? that horror was all made with cameras. what more if it is your actual reality that was scary? it's much harder to feel safe after that."

9.14.2010

i told myself i wouldnt be like this this year but...


im freaking out im so stressed =/

im gunna need coffee on tap and an endless supply of crackers, cookies, and fruits....and juice cuz i think i might be getting sick.

omgah too much to accomplish before the sun comes up

nfdsakjasmdf:ewlkwamfasmf;owae

so kids, let's take a vote. im supposedly goin to Auburn this weekend...but now im wondering if that's smart for me to do with everything i have next week...eeeeck

stop. guitar time. need to calm myself down...yea, tea and guitar...let's see if that does the trick. if not maybe i'll try crack.

no? a little extreme? maybe.

perhaps a placebo chill pill...

but seriously, irene, get a grip!

9.13.2010

my best friend can singer better than yours


i take it back. please dont throw rotten tomatoes at my biff, soul mate, better half (or so she thinks =P)

i love her too much to have her undergo that humiliation...or i just dont wanna have to be around her smelling like rotten tomatoes, but i will pretend my selfishness is in fact love.

9.12.2010

algo que me pongo un poco frustrada

damnit, all the casillas jerseys on ebay are still only M-XL
i wants one!

not my fault butterflies gravitate towards your windshield

attention everyone,

katie keith is a butterfly killer, a brutal butterfly killer. boo her every chance you see her. feel free to throw rotten tomatoes at her as well. don't have any? what kind of person are you?! i never leave the house without some.


9.07.2010

like a book

me: "convince me that i shouldnt go to wendys"
melanie: "you're there now arent you"

9.05.2010




everything will be fine

i know i've already put this song in a post before but it popped up on shuffle...and every time i hear it, it just calms me...plus im sittin on my porch enjoying the breeze.

made for a good moment.



however if you saw me right now you might not think im having such a moment...seeing as i am sitting in my raft on the porch because we have no chairs out there.

such a multi purpose raft. the last time it was used it had a ton of water balloons in it.

9.04.2010

i dont even know

drinkin beer and doin laundry/hmwk at 5 AM on a saturday?

yea dont judge.

sunrise anyone?!

9.02.2010

i dont wanna be another victim of your gravity

maybe if i keep my lights on i can sleep?...

we shall see

9.01.2010

do work son





just realized i have 72 days to cherish being 21 before i start getting old...

8.31.2010

i dug you, i beg your pardon






"There's too many things that i haven't done yet
Too many sunsets
I haven't seen
You can't waste the day wishing it'd slow down
You would've thought by now
I'd have learned something"
"then i don't know if you can hear me,
but i can hear the sound of my own echo coming back alone and,
i don't know why that should scare me
to be so lonely
but i can't stop crying out"


enough.

8.26.2010

my weekend doesnt start till TOMORROW

i need ear plugs...and my neighbors rage EVERY night

8.24.2010

oh Ashton! stop it! ::blush::

"carolina cup is like drunk easter, instead of find the eggs it's find your date!"

went to paws with lissa and my biff. mmmPaws =]

good food and good conversation fo sho.

now reading then early to bed =D look at me gettin those PM hours in! (it won't last)

8.23.2010

light a roman candle with me

...yea...mondays will be rough for me. but it's all good cuz my small group met tonight!...my rogue small group haha. my rogue small group that sang/danced to dirty pop in moe joe? HECK YES.

"the amount of brain space i would have if i didn't remember all the words to that song would be phenomenal" - lissa


8.22.2010

rescue

now brace yourselves....i did school work alllll day today.

this is new for me. feels good to be on top of things though =]

and aside from throwing water balloons off my balcony last night, i did work all last night too!! look at me go!

however, tomorrow will prove to be quite challenging.
i have class at 8 AM, then more class, then work, then more class, then work, then a lab. yikes! lord beer me strength.

so today i got a bracelet. to support the rescue of invisible children abducted to be children soldiers. it came with a video, a video that seizes your heart with a desire to help them. 3,000 children want to be saved. we can help them. no matter how young we are, we are all capable of great change.

8.20.2010

long time no see bud...

i got a message this morning from a friend i havent talked to in years. and it reminded me that we gotta look out for each other. if you call yourself someone's friend, BE there for them. it affects their life more than you know.

"hey i know this is kind of out of the blue, but i just wanted to let you know something. i'm not sure if you remember but back in the day i went through a really rough patch. back then you gave me a note telling me that life is not about living for yourself, it's about living for those who love you and the ones you love. now in the past few years i've been going through an even rougher patch. things haven't exactly gone well for me but i find solace in your note which i still keep in my wallet. i just wanted to let you know that i thank you and love you for what you've done for me. im sorry that i havent kept in better touch with all you guys but know that i think about you guys and pray that you are well and happy.

love,"

(I left his name out for privacy reasons)

8.15.2010

this is where my thoughts drift

so im thinking...that im putting an end to this blog.

thoughts?

don't fret. it's just my current thought, still mulling it over while stroking my long, white, and nonexistent beard. perhaps after braiding it i will make a final decision.

also, brewing in me is the excitement of new beginnings...the promise of a fresh start. the future doesn't freak me out so much. i may not know where i'm heading in the distant future but that's ok, i dont need to. and it's calming. i never had a blankie as a child...but what i feel is similar to what i imagine it feels like, that everything's alright. and what i have in mind for this year and the next, well, it's sort of like my blankie, helps me sleep, soothes me, makes me feel ready for whatever's out there. and i like this newfound feeling of mine.

8.13.2010

lingering?

why thank you katie law. haha

rachel and melanie are here!!!

=D

"did irene's mom just pay me to hang out with her?"-leah

yes melanie, literally writhing in pain

holy crap when does this pain peak already?!

8.12.2010

and i will try...to fix you

im having a tour de clemson blvd or whatever that street is with all the restaurants when this healing process is over and done with! watching tv makes me so hungry with all the food commercials! and i cant eat any of it!

ooh, just got ushered into bed, apparently running a slight fever?
happened so fast, mom leaned in to kiss me goodnight, then all of a sudden i have a thermometer stuck in me and medicine being poured and water and i got tucked into bed. what is this? i want them to do it again. this time i'll time it. aaaand go! no? ok.

also, just got a lecture about how im not sposed to laugh too much tmrw...mom tried to threaten me with stories of people getting bleeders after tonsillectomies. dont worry mom, i have googled those stories in the dead of the night and have already freaked myself out reading them. im totally up to speed.

"it giggled again" (leah in reference to my phone)

i take it back i take it back! gimme the pain meds!!!! ahh someone hold me!...

...just kidding...i kinda wanna take them now but not feeling nauseous is a lot better than the pain i think.

just think of happy things...like leaving for clemson! i was gunna try and push for leaving saturday cuz i just wanna get out of here but now im thinking we'll leave sunday instead. and since im being driven to gvegas, figured i could drop some things off at the mascaro and keith households before i hold my own the rest of the way to clemson!

man i forget i gotta be back in charleston for the pcat on the 21st. anyone wanna come with me? im just goin down to chuck for the night and leaving right after the test i think. or if nothing's goin down in clem, may hit up dt charleston?

sigh, leah just left me, im so sick of being stuck in the house, i really did wanna go out on the boat today, but just going to my eye appointment made me want to pass out so i guess it's better that i stayed home. instead leah brought me flowers, ice cream, and last year's xmas present! haha

im glad leah came over, ive been needing someone to save me from my boredom. but tomorrow's already friday hooray!!! man i really wanted to be feeling a lot better by now. ugh. get with the program throat!

also, check my mom out, been texting me all day! so tech savvy now. alright well im rambling for lack of something better to do...so, ciao

goodbye and good riddance!

no more pain meds. NO MORE. NADA MAS I TELL YOU!!

ps, hi nanner, i love you=]

what alarm?

yucky

no me gusta esta medicina! nada!

also, ive had some trippy dreams tonight...anyone else? furthermore, i dont need my phone to wake up to take my meds anymore...apparently my body wakes up at 11:58 PM and 3:52 AM by itself now. i foresee this becoming a problem...

8.11.2010

"save me i'm lost, oh lord ive been waiting for you...show me what im looking for"--carolina liar

maybe i accidentally took a couple mls over the prescribed 15
maybe im thinking too much

either way im spinning

and i dont like it


guess i'll get back to my book i started in...may?

"Dear Juliet, 17th February, 1946

Was that possibly you I glimpsed in this week's Tatler, doing the rumba with Mark Reynolds? You looked gorgeous--almost as gorgeous as he did--but might I suggest that you move to an air-raid shelter before Sidney sees a copy?
You can purchase my silence with torrid details, you know.

Yours,
Susan




Dear Susan, 18th February, 1946

I deny everything.

Love,
Juliet"

day 3

ow

i was gunna skip my 8 o clock dosage cuz this stuff makes me nauseous....but o boy, i change my mind on that! pain pain go away, come again...never!

4 Am we gotta stop meeting like this

4 am we meet again
let the struggle for sleep begin
till then i'll stalk you on facebook
take a glance at every last picture you took
till my alarm wakes me at eight
to take meds that dont taste so great
oh the life without tonsils
filled with sleepless and painful thrills...


pardon my delirium

8.10.2010

i want a bell

filipino people really dont understand not being able to eat, mom keeps bringing me things i should not be eating... the first time around i gave it a go, but after it got stuck in my throat and i painfully coughed it out i vow never again. damnit, bring the jello.

on the other hand, i like that i can text mom what i need from downstairs because she doesnt want me to move out of bed. she's caught on that i need a glass of ice water like every 30 min. good mom, gooood mom.

8:30

some family came in for dinner, and though i went between stages of passing out and wanting to throw up as i tried to be entertaining, it was worth it because they delivered an envelope from my great aunt and great uncle containing 100 buckaroos. and though i want to spend that on a ton of useless and insignificant things on ebay, i am forcing myself to put most of it into a saving's account. for my life after college...which i momentarily somehow forgot about these past couple days. but now that it's in my thoughts again, ive found some strength to make it till i leave here.

hopefully i'll get to see leah tomorrow...o geez why do i have to burp a lot all of a sudden. stop it! it hurts!

ah im missing the game!...eh too much effort to make it to a tv right now...

10:43

its really great that our ice maker stopped making ice...im about to make dad go to a gas station to get some...and why the heck am i still burping? all ive had today was two scoops of mashed potatoes, bout a spoon's worth of mac and cheese, a cup of soup, a cup of jello, and half a bottle of ensure, i dont see what out of that is making me burp!!

ex-nay on the sally visit

i loathe the debacle im in. sally was supposed to visit today but we have a surprise family visit that basically invited themselves here so dad told me to tell sally she couldnt come (even though she had balloons and Popsicles for me =/) and even for a little. then mom called me to tell sally she could drop by for a little since she knows how hard its been for me to be stuck home this past week and not see anyone and be arguing with my dad. but then dad got mad at me for that. and so since i know he's pissed at me i tried to stay away from him and attempted to go downstairs myself to get some food and ended up nearly passing out at the bottom of the steps. and then proceeded to throw up once i got to the kitchen. and lemme tell you, throwing up when there's an open wound in your throat felt like fire and ice at the same time. i just lay there on the floor for a little before i got around to cleaning it up. miserable.

needless to say i just decided to stay with telling sally she can't come over...

and called melanie instead to vent. yet again. mel you're an angel for letting me call you and vice versa these past few days. please come rescue me soon from this place. i need to get out of here. and i need you!!!




hey biff i miss you. and would do anything for one of your back rubs right now. or to hear your voice...skype date maybe?

day 2: starting to feel the "pain" they speak of...

i dont like this whole wake up every 4 hours to take meds...i actually was sleeping btw 12-4, now wiiide awake again

8.09.2010

i wish my bathroom were closer to my bed

"this stuff's good, what's the street name for this?" I really wanted to quote baby mama when i got my IV put in but refrained because it was an older nurse and i didnt want to freak her out.

well im up, and bored out of my mind. earlier it made me nauseous to watch tv or use the computer and reading just took too much effort. so ive pretty much been staring at my ceiling and my fan turning all day, which didnt make me nauseous. interesting. so i basically spent the day texting everyone (a couple times i got convos mixed up and replied the wrong things to the wrong people, apologies!) and luckily me and melanie had a few phone conversations through out the day. it hurt a little to laugh, and since that essentially made up 90% of our conversations, i had to take several ice water breaks to sooth my throat. totally worth it though!

but now im able to look at an LCD screen and not want to puke my brains out. it's a great change in my life. also, turns out i dont need Will to remind to take my meds at 12 because i never got to sleep! sooo wide awake! and i got prescribed a whole bottle of hydrocdone...(aka lortab elixir). dear lord that seems unnecessary. AND there are 3 refills.

so guess i'll tell ya a lil about my day. since my last early morning post.

i had to surrender my glasses to my parents in the prep room (where i donned a lovely hospital gown and padded socks) so it was a good thing that the nurse lead me by the hand to the operating room since im blind without my glasses or contacts. she also accidentally pulled on my IV in the process...yea that left a bruise. when i arrived and they helped me onto the table/bed, i realized they were playing matt nathanson. and the last thing i remember before being put to sleep was singing "come on get higher loosin my lips" with the nurse, then the next thing i know im coming to in the observation room. the nurse covering post op instructions with my parents was talking a mile a minute while i was still waking up. ergo, i couldnt really focus on anything (and my glasses were still not on my face) and then i realized that as i was acknowledging what he was saying i was very much focusing on his nose and not his eyes. my eyes just couldnt quite make it up there at first. and as melanie pointed out, i was probably cross eyed too. i mustve looked like a hot mess.

needless to day i didnt really know what he was saying, but my parents said i was actually asking good questions pertaining to my surgery and it's success. i should go to job interviews post surgery huh. then mom put my clothes back on for me and i got put in a wheel chair to meet my dad at the car.

since we were near sams club mom asked me if it would be okay if we stopped by there on the way home. i waved yes. but then when we got there the AC in the car crapped out and i was dying and in pain and dad's driving was making me even more nauseous and it was the most uncomfortable i have ever been in my life. finally mom came back, with food that i definitely am not allowed to eat. boo. always gallivanting food i cant eat in front of my face.

then dad dropped me off at home and went to go pick up my medicine...where he learned that i was on birth control for the first time. teet! he naturally initially asked the obvious question from that. but nay, i am not partaking in suspicious activity.

then i had some mashed potatoes and later mac and cheese because this whole jello diet is not gunna work for irene.

and mrs burton called last night to see how im doing! she's always so sweet.

aaaand im getting nauseous again so i'll resume this later...

zack morris and ac slater woke me up this lovely morn'

it's only been 2.5 hours since i last ate and im already hunnngry, and the rents are eating eggs and sausage and mmmm foood...torture. what kind of parents would eat food like that in front of their daughter who cant?

time is passing rather slowly...let's git r done!!! meanwhile ive been watching saved by the bell. oh my childhood floods back to me. hey melanie? did you ever watch that show? or was that lost amongst the two years you were devoid of american culture? haha

well anyhoo, must go, we're leaving in an hour ish to go hack off meh tonsils. cant wait to put on that gown that makes your behind feel all free and liberated. (i didnt think i was gunna have to put one on since it's just tonsils, but apparently i do)

thanks everyone for your texts and calls last night! =] ciao ciao

see ya on the other side. i wonder if i'll realize something's missing when i wake up. prolly not, i'll be more preoccupied with demanding my drugs.

8.08.2010

so that's a vampire who's a viking who's not gay but is having sex with the king's gay partner and what???

cousin cousin's family came to visit tonight!! so good to see him again! we found ourselves watching true blood and eating the filipino dessert of halo halo! (because my fam "gets HBO"...for those who know what im talking about)

got a little awkward with the sex scenes because both his and my parents were in the living room too. intense stuff. but my fam just laughed about it haha.

it was lil hard for cous cous too cuz he had never watched true blood and was thoroughly confused by vampires and werewolves and shapeshifters and vikings and gay guys...oh and porn. ha.

well, they're coming back to visit again tmrw. post surgery. im sure i'll be asleep all day though. but tuesday we have fam from cali dropping by on their way to disney world (theyre in DC right now) who i havent seen in a while and sally's visiting since she goes back to tiger town early wednesday. and then leah comes to visit wednesday! so hopefully my last few days will be more eventful. and then melanie and rachel are comin down friday to chill in charleston before driving me up to greenville sunday =] (i think i can manage the trip from gville to clemson)

well, i should try to get some shut eye now since i gotta be up at 6 AM to eat jello, since it's the last time im allowed to eat before surgery. but since i took a nap i'll prolly have a bout of insomnia. i never learn.




from my queen sized bed in chucktown

i had katie keith change my password to this until my finals were over...except now i feel no inclination to blog. booo. i hate to upset my 5 readers! so i will try to start it up again.

yea...nothing to say...well here are some random pictures from when i was blogless and facebookless... ok right, the pic uploader is choosing to not acquiesce to my request, so there's that. gosh, i actually have to talk to you people then?

moving right along.
i get my tonsils out tomorrow morning! we went out and picked out jello and boost/ensure flavors. it was pretty much the most exciting thing that happened today. not sad at all. well, other than when i picked up a phone call from melanie in my sleep during a nap and had no recollection of it till i talked to her awake. it was funny apparently, but i was not conscious for it so...yea missed that boat. talked to sally herbert on the phone a good bit yesterday, twas a nice change from the silence in our house since i managed to piss dad off. also talked to melanie as she was heading back out to clemson....ahh i miss my roomies! it was so nice to hear her voice and catch up. how we make each other laugh. the catching up was more on my side, i really had nothing to contribute, but she has so many exciting stories from wilmington and meeting famous people. whilst i have been stuck at home and forbidden to do anything outside the house really cuz dad doesnt want me to do anything stupid i guess that would prohibit me from being able to have surgery.

i cant wait to get back to clemson, im so bored out of my mind here under my parent's roof! and i miss talking in "ghetto british" with my roomates! i just may have to call melissa tonight to get my fix in. melanie said she'd call later too so perhaps i could figure out a 3 way call...it'll be a party. ghe-o bri-ish allowed only.

yea, this was not a very good post. apologies upon apologies! i had some funny things annotated in a notebook from when i didnt have the blog, it's up at school though and i cant remember what they were! which should surprise no one.

hope you're faring better than i!

all the best,
.me.

7.18.2010

2 weeks

"There are thoughts which are prayers. There are moments when, whatever the posture of the body, the soul is on its knees."
- Victor Hugo, Les Miserables

whew....2 weeks. just 2 weeks left. then i'll be home in charleston. done with summer school. praise the Lord.

time to burn that midnight candle. sleeping till 3 pm = doing work till dawn.

rawr

dear headache,
i can only pull on my hair for so long without thinking i am a crazed person. i have many things to do until 11:30 tmrw and id appreciate if you just disappeared?
ps- stop rejecting tylenol, just succumb to it, it will all be over soon...if you cooperate

dear throat,
you dont understand how ready i am for surgery on the 9th

dear fever,
im about to start hitting you back with a stick! motrin and i rather dislike your rollercoasterlike nature

dear school,
to heck with you

dear rob buckley,
call me!

7.17.2010

good start


"I need your laugh, your heart full sighs"

this morning was pretty fun, rafted in the reflection pond...

except now im sick in bed. i want my mommy to come take care of me!!!

9:09 PM: aaaand i burnt my fingers making grilled cheese and tomato soup. hooray

11:18PM: got a papercut on one of my burnt fingers from my ochem notes

keep it comin! cant get me down!!!



"and sometimes crying can help you out.
Sing it aloud, Sing it aloud.
SCREAM, shred your lungs
i need to hear you louder now
and sing as if you'll never sing again
and when the morning comes
and your throat is sore
you'll face the day like you did before
with a smile on in the end
."



"If I should doubt my right to breathe
this air that rushes over me
I'll say "Im in love with you,
so I'll keep breathing
just so I can do
everything you need me to.
And I'm a slave for all of your antics.
I'm just a slave I'm such a romantic fool."


7.16.2010

chris strikes again

the roomates are out gallivanting about anderson...

and i am sitting on my bed watching the storm... should've gone with them.

i want to feel like this:

"I thought the light raindrops would be refreshing. but then it picked up. and boy did it come down. and all i could do is stand in it and laugh. i laughed because i was a child playing in the rain. i was joy personified. i was invigorated. awakened. rejuvenated. i was soaked to my gutchies and i didn't care. i found something in that rain that i hadn't in a long time."--christopher joel onken

7.14.2010

miserable.

been doin work all day...finally got my crazy lab report done in the library, along with 7 single spaced typed pages of psych extra credit, now studying the ridiculous material from ochem lecture today and reading through pre-lab material. have yet to review for my upcoming quiz and exam...guess PCAT review will have to wait til the weekend. im contemplating asking my parents to come visit this weekend...i dunno if i can handle this!!! im feeling emtpy and drained.

sun's still shining, sun's still shining...just remember....i just wanna crawl into my bed


i love the view from our apt... otay. time to regroup and keep on keepin on. here i go.

pardon my negativity. it won't last, i promise...

"don't be that person pissed off and tortured all the time, think about being happy in the long run, every choice should lead to that, i see it in your eyes, refocus on what makes you happy"--random conversation with a physics grad student at clemson i have never met before till today while waiting for office hours. brilliant mind. could hardly keep up with him. but he seemed to sense what kind of conversation i needed. bless him.

oooh melissa just yelled that effron's on the ESPY's...must resist urge to go watch tv...or the urge to watch despicable me online...

dear world,

Do not, under any circumstances, bother me. Unless you are offering food. If you are dying then pop in for a quick hug and i love you then kindly die on your merry way.

all the best,
.irene.


and no i am not stressed and freaking out. (fervently nods yes)

7.13.2010

trick or treat!

im baaaaack! yea that hiatus was short lived eh? well this is a temp hiatus from my, er, hiatus...yea.

i just wanted to tell you my tip of the day: when shoving your pockets full of fortune cookies in a chinese restaurant, move slowly when exiting so as to reduce crinkle noise...

also, when reading all of your fortune cookies add "in bed" to the end of them...they are hilarious.
and also very wrong on several levels.
but hilarious all the same.

"there are like 10 fortunes! did you eat them?!?"
"i wanted them all to come true?"



ps....i want a minion!

it's tuesdee

did one of those numbers this morning where you wake up at 6 even though your alarm is supposed to go off at 7 and you just wanna sleep but instead you end up watching every minute go by. dismal.

so got out of bed this morning and started planning my week in my planner. i glanced at the month of july and nearly had a heart attack. soooo much in one month! so, in the spirit of new resolve (which will of course crumble to pieces by the end of the week) ive decided to cut back on blogging and other leisurely activities. like sleeping. so, goodbye and good luck!

for now

7.12.2010

kaboom

people are setting off fireworks at the pool...im kinda fearing for my life since my bed is right against my window (which faces the pool).

::gulp::

ps, i know im just re-discovering this but...one of my small group leaders, amber, had a lot of inciteful conversations with our small group this year...
"once boys hit junior year they start looking for the one, so it's really hard to find a guy who just wants to be friends. Most want more than that."- amber

7.11.2010

vamos espana!

study, study, study, fike, study, SPAAAAIIIINNNNN, study study study....

ps, you know that old lookin bridge comin into clemson from anderson? well i learned yesterday that it's the only place in the world (well maybe that's changed now but it was in the guinness book of world records for a while) where a plane, a car, a train, and a boat can pass all at the same time. pretty cool, huh?

7.10.2010

it's so fluffy im gunna die!



despicable me was so good! i wanna see it again! and my goal tonight, instead of studying organic, is to memorize the despicable me rap...and agnes' lullaby =]

and i love the music too! dance party in apt 733!!!! also, family pic! melissa is margo (glasses), melanie is edith (with the hat), and im...agnes clearly haha


and my new ringtone is totally unicorns i love them mix


agnes: "hey my caterpillar never changed into a butterfly"
edith: "that's a cheeto"
agnes: "oohh" ::chomp!::

7.09.2010

i wanna be the one that puts it in a song


either your laptop is screwing up or you REALLY think this is adorable...

hey leah nicole burton, i miss your face...even though i never really showed that i liked it...

i miss our summer lists...among other things!

haha good times! and this fellah



also i went down memory lane and this game has been in conversation a lot recently

gosh this pic is old!

oh and rufus...i stumbled upon this again...and i need to visit you when you move to cola =]



mahal na mahal kita ading! and i saw the other video you put up, made me laugh

dun Dun DUN DUNNNN

"hurry home! it's Jurassic friggin park outside!"- text from melanie

so me and Will went to go play tennis...but after witnessing debri fly everywhere and a tree branch fall we decided today is not the day to play tennis =(

so instead of losing calories, we gained some at triple t's. still a win?

well back to hittin the books! and maybe a break for the monsoon room?!?! mayhaps...we shall see how much i get done. but first, C.H. is over. and since i havent seen her in like oh a year, time to chill for a lil with her first =]

and check out katie queen's day: "11 hours, 5 salad dressings, 200+ lunch customers, 29 creme brulees, and 26 peach cobblers"

man....i dont wanna study...just wanna dance around to girl talk!








the easiest thing to do is to love the fact i have you

whoa....overdid it yesterday. sooo sore!

i actually like feeling sore...makes me feel like i did something!

man o man. i dont think you understand everything i have to do this weekend pertaining to school. but hopefully i can focus all of today and all of tmrw and take it a lil easy sunday. (although i prolly will end up leaving things to sunday hehe)

first thing to knock out is tomorrow's 8 o clock exam. 8 AM exam on a saturday. so cruel, no?
but as bad as that sounds i know there are worse things in this world haha. like clowns. ::shiver:: i had a slight mental breakdown last night but i think im ready to tackle it head on as of today.

yesterday i met a pretty ballin terminally ill kid at the bball courts at fike. he had a pretty big heart and the most honest eyes i've ever seen. and also yesterday i heard my lab partner's story about how just a year a go she was paralyzed in a wheel chair and now, beyond all odds, shes up and about and lovin life! it's awesome how excited she is about being able to move again. she had to relearn how to do everything. she even had to watch videos of ppl walking to relearn the motion. her story is incredible and im glad that lately ive been surrounded by people so resilient and filled with life, pure energy, and genuine smiles. it's beautiful to feed off of when you're exhausted.

wow, i feel myself slowly slipping into a coma...short nap then work work work!! also someone go see despicable me with me!!!!

"I am an aficionado of the kiss. No other act is so simple and so intimate. The light suction, the flick of the lip, the playful nibble, the deep advance and retreat of the tongue—a good kiss is like jazz, an improvisation of melodies, flirtatious staccatos, and passionate brassy crescendos. A good kiss is a rapport enacted physically, like sex, but more erotic."

now allow me to explain how i got to reading a "how to kiss well" article. it was a link on a despicable me article about relationships that i saw on ::drum roll:: my friend's facebook wall.

...ps hannah howell...i wish i could go to the john mayer concert with you! thanks for the offer...=]

also, if i were a polar bear, id be this one

also. i want a puppy. this one:

7.08.2010

i'm ridin solo, ridin solo



made the first new mix of july =] (i was gunna put the songs up here but some of them are not on youtube =( ...so i stopped at the first song. im so persistent eh)

i have a lot to say....but too tired! goodnight!...im kinda anxious to go to bed. ive had horribly terrifying dreams lately....someone hold me and sing me to sleep!...cyn? you're a good singer, come sing me to sleep!!

ps. night swimming and aerobics is the best, especially with a blind roomate

7.06.2010

wingardium leviosa

curse you four loko.

your mother was a hamster and your father smelt of elderberries

now go away or i will taunt you a second time

7.04.2010

and then i suddenly felt the ground beneath my feet

oh hey. been a few days since my last post. i had a lot of things i mentally took note of to mention here. but of course, i have no earthly idea what they were...

i've been remarkably busy lately and it's nice to get a moment to breath and recuperate. i was so exhausted last week, keeping up with school is the main culprit in that. i feel so mentally drained after classes im surprised my brain hasnt all but turned into mush. maybe 2 classes and a lab isnt such a good idea...but im pretty sure the date to drop anything has passed already so im kinda stuck here. i dunno how i'll make it to august but it'll be worth it in the end im sure. the between stuff is just the hardest to both understand and tackle while you're stuck in it. and i just have to remember that. come august i WILL have A's in my classes and i WILL be ready to take the PCAT and GRE so help me God.

maybe it's the whole school exhaustion thing, or the people i am missing who have pieces of my heart in distant states, but i've been in an odd mood lately. it's like im goin and goin and goin, tryin to keep up a good pace and keep up with everything going on and it's... kind of a lifeless feeling honestly. so much happening and im sort of...just there. which is sad. and needs to change. for all my talk about really living each day of your life, im pretty much a hypocrite. i tell everyone to get as much as you can out of each day and yet i slip ever so easily into having each day pass me by without really cherishing the gift that is life. i forget to take moments and just...be. be happy, be breathing, be in the sun's warmth, be laughing... i spend too much time lost in troubled thoughts and brooding over things that shouldn't matter that much, things that pale in comparison to what my mind should be focusing on instead.

i remember a couple years ago, i just soaked everything in. took every solitary moment to reflect and meditate on the awesomeness that is life, love, and relationships...relationships with family, with friends, with God, with His creation, and even with acquaintances who happen to have the same downtime in the library. even the walks between classes were enough to rejuvenate me and have me smiling. and i let that aspect about how i live my life drift away. not intentionally of course. but here i am. acknowledging that i need change. that i need to bring back that part of me that brought me so much happiness. a happiness i have forgotten how to enjoy. to walk outside, and just take on life with a smile and an understanding that you only get one shot at this, and to not value every single thing about it is a horrible, horrible waste.

hmm...ive accidentally just poured out my heart to you. i was just planning on catching you up on my life events and events to come. but i guess my fingertips knew what i needed instead.

and now i only have one thing to add:

Wii dance is the best invention ever and ridiculous amounts of fun and you need to play it! it's also a lil bit of a workout. it's the secret to life: wii dance

6.29.2010

can i get my parfait laced with zyrtec?

was my question at chickfila today on melanie's extended lunch break. melanie's boss told melanie to take as long as she wants on break today, just as long as she doesnt show back up tipsy. what does that mean for us? lunch at chickfila followed immediately by a beer at nick's. we had a lemony schlitz. lovely use for $1.50 haha.

"i just burped schlitz. at work. i dont think this is very professional." -melanie

but first rewind back to chickfila...they were passing around free mini ice creams and repeatedly skipped our table. but after i cursed the place for denying me ice cream, some manager offered to throw away my tray for me. which was nice.

till i realized my keys were on the tray. so after awkwardly sticking my hand in the trashcan to retrieve my keys, which were fortunately on the top, i dashed to the bathroom to sanitize my entire arm....

which apparently i did in the men's bathroom. oops?

i will never again show hostility towards chickfila.

and fast forward back to nick's. me and melanie have decided to get a copy of their beer list and try all of them before we graduate. stay tuned for what we think are the best!
if you don't know what nick's tavern is, it's a chill bar in downtown clemson with a ton of import, and domestic, beers. cool place.

and now im back home at the apt to cheer on SPAIN!!! la furia roja!!! then swimming, then tennis, then true blood then....eclipse! which actually snuck up on me. i nearly forgot that was tonight. yea....so much for my ten oclock bedtime tonight.

...ugh man does school really start tomorrow again? ah, i will forever be studying. even this weekend i will prolly be studying. if not for school then for the PCAT and GRE.

otay short nap, gotta be energized for all of tonight's apparent festivities (yes i consider playing tennis a festivity these days, PS anyone wanna play soccer at nettles anytime soon?)
actually you know what? a 30 min nap will just make for a very groggy and angry irene, i should just fight through this sleepiness and stay up. yea, that's what i'll do.

ZZZzzzzzzzzzz

6.25.2010

news from my couch

it's oh so nice to be watching tennis and soccer in HD on a huge screen...maybe i can smuggle this tv back to clemson...

and now my 11:30 PM addition:

me and dad bond over watching martial arts ish movies...except he fell asleep in the middle of our first one so...yea stellar friday night for me!

speaking of movies...well, actually im gunna talk about tv shows. my apartment will be so full of distractions when i come back! we'll have true blood and dexter up there (well there's a lot more but those are the ones im more excited to watch) horrible timing to have them...i gotta dedicate my life to studying! and like. forreal this time! especially that i'll be knocked out for a few days after surgery in august and i take the PCAT in august! hmm gotta take the GRE at some point too...hopefully i can manage that along with organic 2 + lab and another psych class! no time to take my daily naps haha. im gunna go ahead and set my bedtime for ten on the weekdays! there's no way i can afford to not be in top mental shape, AKA i actually have to pay attention in class...and dear lord i actually have to GO to class! haha. ex nay on working and volunteering as much as i had hoped. aw well. gotta do what ya gotta do. and i gotta get an A in organic. yikes!

sacre bleu...i dont speak french so i really dunno what that means...sacred blue? why do people even say that?

well, deciding whether to go back to tigertown sunday or monday...at the moment leaning towards monday afternoon...i've missed home.

::sigh:: oh charleston...

otay, guess i should hit the sack. early mornin run with julie! (as to avoid a heatstroke) then BEAAACH!! =D at IOP, 31st, around 11 ish, come be a beach bum with me and clarkin and nanner! and then hopefully i can convince my parental units to go to evening mass tmrw night so i can sleep in sunday morning...here's to hoping!

off to start book 2 of my few day hiatus from classes. buona notte!

.besos. ;)

oh, audible caller id

i didnt realize my phone is set on caller ID...meaning it says "call from mom" when mom calls...i want someone with a ridiculous name to call me so i can hear how my phone pronounces it

also, i gotta get ringtones from phonezoo all over again! if you had a specific song in mind for your own personal ringtone (provided you happen to be in my speed dial, if not, sucks to suck!) let me know if there's a certain song you'd like me to use for you by tmrw =]

6.24.2010

solo tu solamente quiero que seas tu...

(listening to juanes...the chorus of collecionista de canciones caught my ear, but i still love nada valgo sin tu amor)

well folks, looks like i get my tonsils out on the 9th of august. supposedly takes 10 recovery days but i'll be driving back to clemson 7 days later...and if i have my way i'll be eating pizza the day after surgery! haha

but prolly not. everyone at the ENT place said it is a painful, painful experience. the nurse compared the pain to childbirth! seriously?!? i don't believe her. cant be that bad. and the doc said, "by the 10th day you realize you'll live." excellent. and the scheduler said she lost a lot of weight after since she couldnt really eat a lot. oh food...im not used to having to be restricted in the food department. even when i had my wisdom teeth out, i ate what i wanted, much to sally's dismay since she could hardly eat the first few days after surgery. hehehe

but mom had hers out and she was up and about 3 days later! i'll be fine. and i get lortab....oooh drugs haha.

the nurse said plan on doing nothing but watching movies and eating jello for 10 days. who wants to come keep me company?!? and yea...no ice cream. i dunno why getting your tonsils out is associated with ice cream cuz apparently you're not supposed to eat it! so no one bring me ice cream or i'll be very mad that i have to stare at it and not eat it. (though prolly by day 4 i'll eat it anyways) if you bring me anything. it's supposed to be boost or jello. or ice water...i know, so hard to find ice water...such a precious commodity. but the ice water helps coagulate the blood so that im not bleeding too much. haha when the doc looked at my tonsils he was like geeze how do you breath at night? that big ey? he says if i snore it prolly wont happen anymore once these suckers are out. hooray! my friends will be happy. teet!

haha the paperwork says "parents of infants or toddlers, please bring a bottle or cup for juice and a favorite comfort item (blanket, teddy bear, etc)." ...i totally want a juice cup...and damnit i wont have senior truffles!!

as for my phone. it breathed its last on the steps of hartscove the other day and i just now got a new one. everyone has droids geeze. they're ridiculous. the guy helpin me said, "im pretty sure i re-routed a space shuttle the first night i had a droid." i was like yea...i dont need a complicated phone. so finally got a new phone! took a while to get my numbers transferred...considering the top of the phone was detached from the bottom...the guy was like i see this a lot i'll get it to work. in the end he gave up and handed it to me. i messed with it a little, and just as i thought it bested me as well, i let it fall to the counter and it gave a feeble buzz. i cupped it in my hands and brought it to the machine that transfers numbers, and there we held our breath as it transferred them. we didnt know if it would last. but it did. and then it wouldnt stop vibrating....yea...all those texts...no idea what they were since i couldnt see anything...but my new phone is now activated! huzzah! and im glad my numbers got transferred. cuz i dont have anyone's number memorized. regardless of how important you may think you are to me, i have no idea what your phone number is...i should prolly memorize a select few. in case a disaster befalls me and i dont have my personal phone on hand but a different one.

well, im exhausted, had a few appointments today. im beat. off to start two new books! =D

well, after i read lea solanga's column. dad reads it and happens to think she writes well so i've decided to give it a read.

ciao ciao